Haiz.. argh...~!!!

Sometime i wonder is everything i have now is really what i want?
My Life, My Studies, My Relationship, My Dream, My Everything.
Did i make the correct choice? Is this really what i want? Feeling so sick suddenly. =/
Anyway will be start working tml as sales at kaiting work place.
Not kan jiong at all, not excited at all, not happy at all. wtf~!
Just want my bloody time to pass FAST only.
Cant go Redang with Uncle Ban, kinda disappointed.
But manage to ask my mum go taiwan with me. Will be going on the 5th April, sibei happy.
BUT is this Yonghan wish? Mummy wish? or even my Aunite wish to go taiwan?
I feel like im the only one who is so happy abt going taiwan and they are just like the follower. haiz~
Whatever it is. IM JUST A RUBBISH~!!! !!!